SEASON : WELL DESERVED.
Lol, I know ya’ll were not expecting a late night blog post on a damn Tuesday. But, here we are. I heard on a podcast earlier that “If you think about it, go to sleep thinking about it, and wake up thinking about it, you should be doing it.” So, here I am. It felt right. It felt good to grab my Macbook out of my unpacked suitcase still tucked away from this past weekend’s stay-cation. Let me pour out these thoughts…..
God knows everything that I want. After all, this is the life that he’s chosen for me, I’m just the main character. I do not have to turn off my desire for things to focus on myself. I do not have to force myself to ignore my feelings of sadness to focus on myself. But, if I don’t center what I need, I will be consumed by lack. And I can’t function in that space.
Every year I grow into a more powerful, secure version of myself. There hasn’t been a year yet where I haven’t surpassed my own expectations on what’s possible for me. It’s always been more peace, more money, more clarity, more rest, more joy. Every single year.
I’m currently in my disciplined era. There’s a lot of slow progress, small wins, hidden sacrifices no one really gets to see. Maybe never will, and that’s okay. I am so damn proud of ME. I’m so proud of what I’ve been making real for myself. The next step of my growth will be about me letting go of the reward. Letting go of how people perceive what I do. Letting go of anxiety around failing and even succeeding. Just doing the things I’m moved to and letting go of the rest. God will handle the rest.
If you aren’t dreaming big enough, God will certainly drop an opportunity into your lap that forces you to be ready for more. It’s so terrifying but needed. Every time. Sometimes, I just smile to myself when I realize that I haven’t touched the surface of who I’ll one day become. I could pivot at any moment, or I can pivot in another few years. There is so much more of ME left to explore.
I have fully removed the burden of trying to fix and impress this world from my shoulders. Imagine caring more about the applause more than the victory? Couldn’t fucking see it. The next few weeks are so very important to me. I’ll be seen less because I’ll be doing more. Having the people that I love around me while I’m on this journey is the most important thing to me at the moment. I’m really doing some of the best work of my life behind the scenes right now.
God, please continue to show me just how good it gets.
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