I’M IN A SEASON.
I remember the days I used to wonder if I’d ever be in the position that I’m currently in today. And now, here I am. Sitting in previous prayers. Faith and Patience. Lot’s of it. But also, ALOT of God as well. Let’s not forget that man. Of course that isn’t the entire recipe, there were many more ingredients involved, like pressure, anxiety, sacrifice, discomfort, negativity, if you can think of anything else, we’ll throw that in there too. Lol, the journey was a mess. Nonetheless, it was ineluctable for my growth. I’m currently sitting propped up on the couch, staring at the gloom outside, sneezing my life away as I lose this battle with my allergies, with tabs open for bar carts, floor length mirrors and still deciding where I’ll set up my Pellie.(That’s short for Peloton for the non – workout girlies lol). Life has been pretty good to me, and I am forever grateful.
The other day, I wrote a letter of promises to myself and ya’ll I was basically over here crying and throwing up (I really am so dramatic, but it’s the Leo in me) because it really dawned on me just how much I truly love myself. It has been such a pleasure enjoying this “Journey of Me“. The self-care, the self-love, the softness, the grace, the kindness. It is all necessary. Healing. It is necessary. I read a quote on Twitter the other day and I want to share it with you all:
For me I think this is the best way to describe healing. Imagine deep cleaning your house. It gets messier before it gets clean. Healing is similar. Your pulling shit from under your bed, purging your closet, and taking out the trash. Then everything eventually just gets better. @triceclark
Listen…… perfectly said. I’m pretty private when it comes to certain shit but I’m also an open book. I make sure to share the downside of situations because life isn’t perfect for any of us and I’m not ashamed of what I go through. The “me” online is the “me” in real life. Encouraging, positive, motivating, peaceful, unapologetic. Look at me tooting this damn horn lol. BIG UP YUH SELF LA ! I know that I say this often online but I want everyone to fall in love with themselves. Date yourself. Romanticize your life. Spend time with yourself. Love on yourself. Extend grace to yourself. Hype yourself up. Big up every single thing that you’re doing. Forgive yourself, and lastly, enjoy yourself. And this is not me telling you to remain single, leave men alone, be alone. Because you can do all of this with a partner indeed as I am living proof. I am just promoting individuality because at times we get so wrapped up in life, in people that we lose ourselves, and it isn’t that easy to find our way back.
I’m in a season. A season of growth and maturity. I can sense a literal shift in my life and in my mentality and ya girl is just so grateful, thankful, and blessed. Things that I once responded to with emotion, I am now responding with logic. I am a constant work in progress but I’m here doing the work to create the life that I want to live. Always remember that your journey is your journey. It was crafted specifically for you so not everyone will understand it. Make sure to always remember this if the opinions of others begin to cloud your mind. Stay the course, always.
I manifested my entire life. Everything that I sit through daily is something that I created, something that God created for me. My career, what my life look and feels like, my salary, healthy love, and a life that I don’t always need a vacation from. I am currently the happiest and mentally healthiest I’ve ever been. I only feel peace and abundance. I created a life that is rooted in quality, comfort and ease. It’s so hard for me to write about happiness because to some, no matter how well it may be written, they’ll always interpret it negatively. And this is never me being braggadocios. This is me showing others that your life can be anyway you want it to be as long as you show up for yourself and do the work.
In the next coming weeks and months, I have so much in store for the blog and for The She-Shed and I am so excited yet nervous at the same damn time. Because, perfection. Duhhh lol. But no, seriously I’m so excited and I thank God for giving me this creative mind of mine because wow, at times I truly surprise myself. We’re going to be creating Victory jars, building capsule wardrobes, staying productive by utilizing NOTION, updating resumes, learning new recipes, SAVING money. Listen, we love a well-rounded woman right? & YOU are that sis !
I just realized that I didn’t once mention how amazing my birthday getaway was. My partner knows me really well, I must say. Because this birthday was one for the books indeed. My 30’s thus far have been ALL THAT. The good, the bad, and the ugly. But I’ll save that cup of tea for another post. I’m thinking that I should start posting twice a week because I have entirely too much to say in one weekly post and you guys will be scrolling forever lol. We shall see. I hope you enjoy today’s Sunday read and have a wonderful week ahead. Love you guys !
xoxo – La.
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