I AM WHO YOU SAY I AM.
10:35 A.M on a 73 degree Sunday morning. The last Sunday of the summer. I’m here on my favorite spot on the couch, glancing out the window at the leaves glistening in the sun. My worship playlist is on shuffle and I’m lip syncing with Chandler Moore. Life is so good. Believe that I’m rushing through this post this morning because I need to start getting ready for brunch soon before my cousin kills me lol. So here we go. Again, this is officially the last weekend of Summer. Have some fun outdoors today. Take a walk, find some grass to sit on and read. Go day drinking and sit on the patio, maybe even have a last minute picnic. Whatever it is that you may choose today, just do it.
My theme this week was “releasing”. Now that I think of it, that’s probably the theme of my life these days. I’ve been releasing and letting go of all kinds of things for such a long time that it’s become part of my new normal. This week, I found myself releasing the belief that I need to have my entire life figured out “right now” and it has been so liberating. I feel absolutely no pressure to achieve socially endorsed goals. Because if we’re being honest here, that’s exactly where these expectations are coming from. Online.
I feel like I say this every few months but please do what works for you. You do not have to make life decisions based on what the internet is telling you or isn’t “acceptable“. Do you. One of the most beautiful parts of my growth is the ability to make my own decisions and stand firmly in them. No longer letting other’s opinions shape the way you feel or determine how you move is a powerful way to live. Life is too short to live it based on the rules of others who serve no purpose to your life. Please okay, remind yourself who the fuck you are girl.
I am so content within myself, my goals, the expectations I place upon myself, so much so that another person could never be able to change my mind on how I “should” be doing a damn thing. I’ve broke those cycles of constantly comparing my marathon to the sprints of others years ago. And I know that this all is so much easier said than done. It’s so easy to see the lifestyle or success of another and wonder just what their blueprint was and if it’ll work for you. I’ve seen it happen far too many times. But know that life does not work like that, at all.
Sometimes, your evolution requires you to step away for awhile, to opt out, to have more alone time, to be more still, to be a little more silent, to not be as social as you were. Let me say this, if you need this, do it shamelessly, fearlessly, and without any doubt. Your soul will lead you to where you need to be. Tune in, and trust. You know I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t sprinkle some personal experience into my weekly post. At one point, I found myself in the most uncomfortable space where EVERYTHING about me was changing. My hobbies, my goals, my ideas of what fun was, and just about everything that once made me happy had changed. Literally, everything. It was such an unfamiliar space for me to live within. BUT, it was needed. It was a reset. Life truly does begin at the end of your comfort zone. Step out and embrace it.
I’m at a space in life that I never knew even existed. Peace is really wealth. And baby, I am rich in it. I protect my pace at all cost. I’m willing to sacrifice, to lose, to disconnect, unfollow, unfriend, block and break ties with whoever or whatever attempts to interrupt my peace and happiness. I only connect with those who have my best interest at heart. Please, do not take my distance personal. Wait, actually please do. This year has changed my view on life, love, friendship and family. This journey has nothing to do with you but everything to do with me. I’m in my DS2 season, and at this point, I am who you say I am.
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