COZY GIRL SUNDAY.
We really have to stop meeting like this. LOL ! Happy Sunday my loves. I hope everyone is doing well on this true fall like afternoon. As for me, I am doing amazing on this cozy girl Sunday. Currently sitting in my favorite spot on the couch, occasionally glancing out the window in awe of just how nature works. I have this really good 90’s R&B playlist on shuffle and listen….. I am in my element okay ! So now that my visual introduction is out of the way, let’s get to the good stuff.
I’ve been MIA for a few weeks, consistency has not been my best friend for a little while now so please, be patient with me. Work has consumed my life in magnitudes that I cannot even fathom, bathroom and kitchen renovations has had me in a chokehold, and then add on balancing family, friends & your partner and yea, you basically have frazzled Fran operating on -18 %. She is currently ME. However, I’ve been able to choose the direction of my life up until this point and I will forever remain grateful. Thanking God for discernment.
Who I am, what I do, who I involve myself with, and where I go are all personal choices that I pride myself on because I have been able to build my life on my terms and I am so very proud of who I am and the life I’ve built. All of this being said, is the reason it’s so easy for me to disappear as frequent as I do. I feel less of the need to be online and more of the need to create and be present with my loved ones. I feel as if I’m getting ready to unlock that Sade level of privacy and artistry. Only working when and how I want to. LOL, who TF do I think I am ?
It’s been 5 months since my move and I’ve experienced so many “First” moments that I’ll hold forever in my memories. From Birthday’s, annual gatherings, holidays etc. Wow, this has been one decision that I can honestly say that I feel like I got right. I do not regret it one bit. Who said starting over had to be a bad thing? Because it isn’t. I’ll share more of this journey with you all really soon, I pinky promise 🙂 .
You can get so much more accomplished when you’re not consumed by the thoughts or concept of having people SEE how accomplished you are. Lock in and let these individuals see you when they see you. And if they never see you, who gives AF ? Because you’re still winning. I adopted this mindset a while back when I began to cringe at just how much I was oversharing to the internet. I had to sit with myself and ask myself “Who are you doing all of this for?” Was I doing it for myself, or for applause and gratification from outsiders looking in, these individuals who could really care less about wtf I had going good or bad for myself. Like girl, BFFR ! Knowing the difference between privacy and secrecy is indispensable. I truly love my privacy. Not everything is worth sharing. I’m just so grateful to have grown to a space where I love myself entirely. I’m so grateful to not feel the need to prove myself. Entirely grateful for the here and now and all that’s to come.
As the holiday season approaches, and I begin to experience more “first” moments in my city, ya girl is excited as hell inside. I am so happy to have found my way back to the holiday season spirit of enjoyment. When my brother transitioned suddenly during the Christmas season in 2019, I just knew that I’d never feel healed enough to celebrate another holiday without him. The thought alone saddened me, because Christmas is my absolute favorite holiday, and the thought of never celebrating it again hurt me to the core. But, HEALING. And thank God for it.
I am here sending all my love to everyone grieving during this time. Especially as we head into the holidays. Grief is hard, it is rough, it is uncomfortable, but necessary. I hope that you are surrounded by love when you need it most. And please feel free to be ok with not being ok if this is ever the case. I pray for your peace.
I love the way you all support me and cheer for me. It is overly appreciated. Ya’ll have no idea. I am so proud of what I’ve built. Indebted for the gift of creativity and to be able to continue to expand on my vision. Through calmness, appreciation emerges. Until next Sunday my loves.
xoxo, Elle Cee.
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