CHAMPAGNE SHOWERS.
Sunday March 6, 2022. 9:39 AM. I’m sitting up in bed with one of my favorite Kompa songs playing in the background, Maddix is snoring as if he worked 14 hours straight yesterday, I have about 32 tabs open on my Macbook and somehow ya girl is still filled with complete peace. This here is a blessing. Because this time last Sunday, I was in shambles and even that is an understatement. If you don’t know, last Sunday kicked off session one of The She-Shed. I just knew that I’d wake up super positive and excited about the upcoming evening with my girls, but it was the total opposite. I was having a complete meltdown. I could not shake the negative energy that was attached to me. No amount of prayer, venting, crying or meditating was working. Listen, just thinking about it gives me chills because I really don’t know what any of that was about.
Last week was such a monumental weekend for me to say the very least. I passed my NYS certification exam to practice as a Scientist within the state, I celebrated one of my best friend’s 31st birthday, I launched a platform that my heart beats daily for. So many good things wrapped up into an amazing 72 hours. But the negative was beating the shit out of the positive and ya girl was too stunned to speak. (Lol, I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t include a TikTok reference in my writing).
I remember preparing for my evening on autopilot. I showered, applied my makeup and curled my hair. I got a call to come downstairs where I was then gifted two bottles of my absolute favorite wine blend, a beautiful floral arrangement and to top it off, my favorite Chinese food plate. Like if I’m God’s favorite then please just say that lol. The level of attentiveness that one has to possess to really understand and be of assistance to me is top of the line. This man knew just how important this day was for me and he delivered. He wished me an amazing launch day and basically told me to relax, that I got this and the world is my playground. I hung on to those words for dear life and ran with it. Forever grateful for a soul like his. I have some really amazing men in my life and I am forever grateful.
The night was a huge success. Filled with laughter, tears, women being completely exposed and vulnerable in front of complete strangers, wine, alcohol and weed lol. If I had no idea what my life purpose was before this night, I for damn sure knew by the end of our zoom session. God gave me a huge assignment, but I’m making this shit look very easy. 2022 is NOT my “Win in private” year. I’m bragging. I’m posting all of my victories, everything good that happens to me (outside of my love life lol, ya’ll know better than that). Posting it all, and it isn’t my concern who doesn’t like it. I refuse to water myself down to make me digestible for others to tolerate me. Please, CHOKE !
We have to get out of the habit of being confined to our “norm”. Fully immense yourself into this new version of you. Whatever that may look like. You deserve all of the beautiful things, so position yourself to see that. “Eternal Sunshine” by Jhene Aiko just started playing and all I hear is “Is it strange for me to say that if I were to die today, there’s not a thing that I would change, I’ve lived well”. Whewwwwww. Listen, this life shit is beautiful. It’s all about perspective. Learning to fall in love with every bit of yourself is growth that I wish on every woman
I’m definently giving myself the credit that I deserve today. I’ve come a very long way. Although I’m not exactly who I want to be yet, I do know that I’ve been making the right decisions to help get me to that place. My prayers, my therapy, my journaling, my soul journey, my transparency are all daily practices and a pivotal part of the Lala that you experience today.
Session two of The She-Shed kicks off tonight and I am so happy to have waken up with so much clarity and positive energy. I feel so damn good. I cannot wait to log in tonight and see my girls. To hear about their weekend, and just what’s on their mind in general. I was really made for this shit.
So, here’s to living a soft, beautiful, fulfilled and luxurious. Champagne for dinner, for life.
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