2021. The Good, Bad, & Ugly!
I entered 2021 very optimistic. Ya girl was fresh out of a 7 year relationship, I had just launched a new business in November of 2020 so I was carrying that into the new year as well, I moved into my new apartment all by myself and completely alone, I met someone new a few months prior and I was happy and pleased with him. Life felt good. I was healing. I was happy. I felt really happy.
But even with all of my blessings worth being happy about, life was definently life-ing on the back-end like never before. I experienced the most anxiety this year than ever before. My weight fluctuated the most it has ever, I slipped in and out of depression over and over. I felt as if I had no control over myself. My spirit was very unsettled. I felt so unsure of myself, so insecure, so frazzled. In the midst of finding myself, I lost myself as well.
I laughed a lot but definently cried even more. My year was pretty rough. I endured a lot of pain that I wasn’t the cause of. I caused others just as much pain. There was a lot of self reflecting taking place in that year, BUT the storm did not last forever. I mean, does it ever?
I had the opportunity of traveling to the beautiful country of Belize with my partner to celebrate my 31st birthday, I accepted what I would consider to be my dream position at such a prestige organization (or at least in my opinion it is lol) all while still in grad school. I hit my savings goal for the year, l lost someone who I thought I’d have in my life until my dying breath. But was it really a loss after all? Only time will tell. In this past year, I rediscovered myself. I was able to work on the areas of life that I had been neglecting for such a long period of time unbeknownst to me.
This girl pushed herself in school like never before and maintained her GPA the whole way through. Yes yes, 4.0 mami!! I was accepted into my Public Health Doctoral program, I met some pretty amazing people, rekindled friendships with childhood/lifelong friends, reconnected with God, and began to work on and build stronger relationships with my relatives.
So in the end, I won. Against all odds. I have purposely left out so much more but you get the picture. Life threw so many curve balls at me this year, I’ve experienced things head on that I never thought I’d make it out of and look at me? I’m blessed. I’m so excited to see all of the amazing things I’ll do in 2022. I have set some really stern expectations for myself, but that’s just it, all for myself. I am no longer expecting anything from anyone because it’s not my job to. I control the narrative in this life here, & boundaries will no longer be crossed. 💙
I look forward to more blogs and taking you all on this journey of discovering life with me.
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